Present?

In the stillness of this lovely night I'm trying to find peace.  I can't seem to find it these days--my mind goes a mile a minute and I can't silence it.  There's so much to do and so much not done that I don't know where to start.  I feel guilty if I sleep, but I know I need my rest.  I become angry for needing sleep, which is totally crazy. I can't keep just living on caffeine.

The pussy willow is in bloom, so I know I should be happy that spring is here.  All I can see is another endless list of To-Dos that won't get done or will get done half-assed.

It's hard to be present in the moment when you're overwhelmed.

It's a gift to have the ability to find inner calm when you're surrounding by tumult.  It's a gift that I don't seem to have, but I'm hoping that I can find the strength to be calm.

We'll see.